menjadi dewasa
jijay sekali judulnya. tapi memang, kita bukan anak-anak lagi, bukan remaja lagi. Tahun ini gua 23 tahun, Agustus nanti. Dan sekarang2 ini gua lagi looking back, apa aja yang udah gua accomplish selama 22 tahun kebelakang. Rasanya masih kurang, rasanya I'm not doing good enough, hard enough, rasanya orang-orang di sekeliling gua maju dan gua diam. Or is it just me being paranoid?
So I'm trying to be postive, gua udah lulus, gua punya biro desain sendiri (Mint Interior), gua udah pernah nerbitin novel (dan sekarang masuk cetakan ke-2), gua sedang merencanakan S2 untuk bulan Juli nanti, gua sedang belajar sinematografi (script gua dipilih untuk film pendek!), gua punya penghasilan sendiri (bisa ikut asuransi loh), gua punya steady boyfriend (okay, I'm just want to write that..), gua sedang merencanakan usaha gua sendiri (wait for the Huggop!), gua punya temen2 yang baik (Nuy, you're the greatest) and so far I'm still running for my dream.
Maybe it's not good enough, but I'm trying here. :)
so..the reality sometimes just hit me, that now I'm a woman, mature enough to take responsibilities, to make choices, to do something that maybe I don't really like it. Bener deh, kadang liat denah gua rasanya langsung pusing dan maag. hehehe, but you know, you just got to hang in there. Above all, I really love what I do now.
This year, insyaallah Jiwa bakal lulus. Entah kenapa gua merasa hubungan kita bakal berubah, we're not us 3.5 years ago. But amazingly, I can't wait for that to happen. Gua rasa sekarang Jiwa juga sudah berubah, he's becoming a man and I'm so happy I'm here to watch that happen. Mungkin nanti kalau Jiwa kerja, things we'll be so much different, mungkin bakal ada jarak yang misahin kita, dunia yang gua gak tahu. Am I crazy or what, but I'm just excited.
Walau sekarang kadang gua sedih memikirkan things that gone, Temen2 yang pindah ke Jakarta, ke luar kota, suasana kampus dan nongkrong2 ga jelas seakan-akan we have all the time in the world, dan hal2 yang kita lakuin for no reason at all, just want to have fun, gua merasa senang juga. Nikmati saja menjadi dewasa!
So I'm trying to be postive, gua udah lulus, gua punya biro desain sendiri (Mint Interior), gua udah pernah nerbitin novel (dan sekarang masuk cetakan ke-2), gua sedang merencanakan S2 untuk bulan Juli nanti, gua sedang belajar sinematografi (script gua dipilih untuk film pendek!), gua punya penghasilan sendiri (bisa ikut asuransi loh), gua punya steady boyfriend (okay, I'm just want to write that..), gua sedang merencanakan usaha gua sendiri (wait for the Huggop!), gua punya temen2 yang baik (Nuy, you're the greatest) and so far I'm still running for my dream.
Maybe it's not good enough, but I'm trying here. :)
so..the reality sometimes just hit me, that now I'm a woman, mature enough to take responsibilities, to make choices, to do something that maybe I don't really like it. Bener deh, kadang liat denah gua rasanya langsung pusing dan maag. hehehe, but you know, you just got to hang in there. Above all, I really love what I do now.
This year, insyaallah Jiwa bakal lulus. Entah kenapa gua merasa hubungan kita bakal berubah, we're not us 3.5 years ago. But amazingly, I can't wait for that to happen. Gua rasa sekarang Jiwa juga sudah berubah, he's becoming a man and I'm so happy I'm here to watch that happen. Mungkin nanti kalau Jiwa kerja, things we'll be so much different, mungkin bakal ada jarak yang misahin kita, dunia yang gua gak tahu. Am I crazy or what, but I'm just excited.
Walau sekarang kadang gua sedih memikirkan things that gone, Temen2 yang pindah ke Jakarta, ke luar kota, suasana kampus dan nongkrong2 ga jelas seakan-akan we have all the time in the world, dan hal2 yang kita lakuin for no reason at all, just want to have fun, gua merasa senang juga. Nikmati saja menjadi dewasa!
